Personal Log; 40964.8

Posted on 28 Aug 2020 @ 1:50am by Lieutenant JG Kyr th'Vovass

Personal Log; 40964.8 – LTJG Kyr th’Vovass, U.S.S. Boston

Kyr wearily enters into his quarters, fatigue straining his body as he slumps towards his love seat. Sighing as he sits, he closes his eyes sprawling out with his body and as he does so the memories return…

Klaxons blaring, the voice of the Computer repeating “Containment Breach in Research Lab 3”, the terrifying moments of hurriedly donning a EV suit, whispered prayers to unknowable, uncaring Andorian gods that you haven’t been exposed to what you been working on, then the fear returns when you make your way to the Lab, the horrible faces twisted in anguish and agony of your friends and coworkers as they lay dying, pus ridden sores, the bloody vomit. You are ashamed to be happy that you can’t smell them soiling themselves …

Kyr eyes snap back open and he lays silent on the loveseat for a while, the echo of the screams ringing in his head.

“Computer, Begin Personal Log”

“While in route to the Orion Asteroid base containing the stolen bio- mimetic gel taken by the Gorn Tarik, we captured a freighter that was heading there which carried photon torpedoes modified with the Stardust bio-weapon in their warheads, a planned flight route to the Romulan Neutral Zone along with its crew of rogue Starfleet personnel led by one Admiral Talbot. I spent all day interrogating the crew and Talbot…it was shocking how easily they admitted to breaching the Treaty of Algeron and the Geneva Protocol of 2152, our treaty with the Romulan Star Empire and the protocol that banned the use and the development of biological weapons in the Federation. They believe that their connections to the Federation Council which they claim to have and to unidentified elements within the Romulan Star Empire will protect them from punishment. That second part was a surprise and it supports Drela’s theory that rogue Tal Shiar elements are supporting this operation. I thought that I would feel better in taking some of those involved in this plot and partly responsible for the project into custody but instead I feel a great emptiness. T’Mok and Velires are still out there, the quadrant is not safe until they are taken in along with their co-conspirators but it feels like I am facing a hydra, each time I think that I have followed one lead to its conclusion I find even more leads to even greater crimes…”

“This emptiness that I am feeling…I yearn to go to T’Char’s side, to take her into my arms and let her tell me that it will be alright…she is my t’hy’la, I have fallen for her hard, I haven’t wanted to admit it to myself but I do love her…it feels so nice to be wanted and needed. It is nothing like I felt about Velires when we were together, Velires always kept me distant and our relationship was very unequal but this one…T’Char makes me feel happiness again after this terrible year that I had before joining the Boston, we just click together. I feel like I have the strength to face what happened at Carrington, I am tired of trying to bury my feelings about the losses I feel and the responsibility that I have to get justice for my friends who died there, I still owe it to them to take T’Mok, Velires and all the rest of them, all those smug Admirals and whoever else supported the Project into custody.
They would murder billions just in a roll of the dice in trying to make an unequal treaty more “fair”, I have nothing but contempt for them…perhaps that is unbecoming of a Starfleet officer but they pervert and twist what the Federation stands for and they can’t be allowed to get away with it, they don’t just get to walk away from this…I should calm down some, maybe T’Char is right and I should start doing meditation exercises with her…in fact why don’t I start now, any excuse to see her.”

“Computer, End Personal Log”